The role of Stay @ home Mommy*

I really was nervous coming into this new role of full time mommy. Well, I was always a full time mommy before but I worked part time...even though it felt like full time. Working did not allow me to be with Micah as much as I would like to be. I only would see him in the morning while I was getting ready for work then when I got home it was dinner time, bath time, a little play time and then off to bed, with occasional 4am wake ups. Before Micah was born Shelden and I went to a youth conference as leaders and God spoke very clear to me. First he told me Micah was a boy....then he slipped in there that he is going to be a pastor. A couple of nights later I was praying and God said he wanted me to bury my heart in being a mommy. Being a stay at home mom was something I desired but nothing I was too passionate about. I grew up going to daycare and after school care. I was used to being taken care of by other people while my parents worked, and they did a great job of making sure to spend quality time with me. We have a great relationship now and because of that I never thought of staying home as a must. So Micah was born and I was hoping there was going to be a way where I could quit while I was on maternity leave but it didn't happen. Off to work I went, while he was taken care of by Shelden's mom. We are definitely grateful for that!!! But it was hard to drop him off and let someone else raise him. Finally we came to a point where we entertained the idea of me staying home with the little guy. Shelden told me that I had to be positive that this is what God wanted as it would be tight with only one income. So I pushed it off a little more and God blessed us with a house! :) We are not quite moved in yet...but that's a whole other blog post!
Talking to a dear friend of mine one night, we were talking about some decisions she was making in her life and how God hadn't said yes or no but she knew she just needed to move in faith. And so I shared with her that I didn't have enough faith to stay home with Micah and only live off of one income. There it was...I said it out loud. Once I said it, I kinda thought umm...looks like you've found your answer! So I started to wrestle back and forth with what God really wanted. I talked to our pastor's wife and she said, well going off of what God said to you and you knowing you don't have enough faith...it seems pretty clear what you need to do. So I talked to Shelden that night and he was totally on board with no hesitations.

So here I am first week down: I am definitely tired, especially with the new baby on its way and I am the happiest I have ever been. This little guy is a handful and he has a "D" personality for sure, he is Mr. independent with eating his food. He won't really take spoon fed food because he wants to pick it up with his hands. He is almost walking but for now he is a super fast bear crawler. I love all the smiles he gives me and I love making him crack up when I eat his belly. I do find it hard to keep my patience when he is fussy and fighting to the death to not take a nap but once he wakes up, his playfulness wipes my memory away of fussy monster man. I am proud to be his mommy and I am glad that I get to take care of him everyday. He drives me crazy sometimes but I know that he will fulfill his God set destiny if I obey God at how to be his mom, in that particular moment.

I want to be a purposeful mom in how I train him. I want to raise him to love God and love people. I know I have my work cut out for me but this is what God intended when he made me a mommy.

 Micah acting silly while he eats lunch

 notice all his choices of fingerfoods...