We got another ultrasound today, which is always amazing to me. It's crazy that there is a little being stuffed inside my belly. And man is he stuffed!!! He weighs slightly under 5lbs. Talk about a chunker!!! We got to see his face...kind of...on the 3D ultrasound, I think him and Micah will look alot alike. The ultrasound predicted that my due date will be July 31st, instead of the original predicted date of August 3rd. Praise Jesus for that! Time is going by fast, as always! I look at Micah when he is running around like a crazy man and think, oh my goodness...there is going to be two of them!!! But by God's grace I'll be able to raise these little guys! I don't know how its going to work out but it WILL work out!
Being at home with Micah has been the transistion of a lifetime. I am becoming a different person, in a good way, I really feel myself stepping into a Mother's role. I don't think I am like most moms and sometimes I get insecure about that but I am confident in how God wants us to raise these little guys. We are super laid back with Micah, in the way of letting him figure out how things work...like gravity. This little boy always has bumps and bruises. He has learned the art of falling, he knows how to lift his head up when he falls on the ground so his head won't hit. So smart this kid! I was shopping at my favorite store, TJ Maxx when I, the defiant to rules mommy was letting Micah play in the bigger area of the shopping cart. No he was not buckled in the top part of the basket facing me, with his legs through the holes. He was standing up, cart surfing and pulling clothes to his face. He reached out for a dress and stumbled a bit...believe me this kid was not going to fall out but the lady in the aisle gasped with horror as she thought he was going to plunge to his death. She kept gasping as he was falling and getting back up within the basket. Oh man, I thought she was going to call CPS on me! Sometimes I think people see us and think we are crazy or too laid back, but then I think about it and I love watching Micah figure out how to do things on his own. I won't always be able to be there for him. He has a healthy independence about him and I like that. I don't want to be a helicopter parent but I am sure there are ways we are. He is such a smart little guy, who loves to figure out how mommy and daddy do things around the house.
My prayer for Joshua is that we would not compare him to Micah. We love Micah so much and think the world of him, of course we think he is super smart and super cute. He definitely is a fast learner and has met milestones a little earlier then the average. But Joshua could have a totally different temperment and personality. And I don't ever want to speak bad things over him, I don't ever want him to feel like his older brother is better then him in anyway. Joshua will be such an amazing man of God and will be different then Micah. They both have a high calling on their lives and I need to remember that while I change poopy diapers, listening to crying and go crazy from not sleeping very much.
Raising Micah has showed me that I had so much more capacity for selflessness. And now with Joshua soon to make his arrival, I am sure there is a whole other level for selflessness that I will have to make room for.
