I have been looking up different pain medications for when I go into labor. I am kind of disappointed because all I have found is the epidural, spinal tap and morphine. I am so fearful of getting an epidural again. I had horrible side effects from it and my first week home with Micah was awful! I could not take care of him the way a new mommy should be able to. My doctor keeps reassuring me that it is only a 1% chance of getting spinal headaches (which is what I suffered) with an epidural. But I cannot see myself getting one again! I really don't want such an invasive pain medication. So out goes the spinal tap because that is more invasive then the epidural. And I really rather not be doped up on morphine, plus that will affect little baby. Really, my only option right now is going all natural, and honestly that still scares me a bit! I know my body was made to do this, God made me strong enough to take it but I am still a little bit nervous. I am nervous that I will go to my default and quit in the midst of pain. I am so good at quitting or not giving my 100% in the middle of something difficult. Luckily, I have a handsome and awesome husband that is willing to push me to my best potential. He reminds me all the time that I am strong enough to deliver this baby without drugs. And I know he will do such a good job of coaching me and encouraging me through laboring.
I am excited to have this little guy! Honestly, I am excited to not be pregnant anymore! But I am more excited to add another flowers boy to the bunch. I am excited to see how Micah reacts to this new little baby in our home and how they will grow up to be best friends. Well, we are praying that they will be best friends!
Almost there!!! Praise Jesus!
