Anywhoooo....
I still can't believe that I am raising two little baby boys that are mine. Shelden and I look at each other when both of them are crying and say "welcome to reality". Even though some days truly suck, yes I am serious, sometimes those days include two fussy-for-no-reason boys mixed with a messy house, nothing out thawing for dinner, and a minimum wage check. Yet, I love this life that God has blessed us with. I really would not trade it for anything. I do have to be honest, right after Joshua was born there were a couple of events we were invited to but had to leave early or not go because of the little guys and I was feeling a little jealous of the "no-kids life". I just wanted to do what I wanted to do and not have to worry about when baby's next feeding was. In the midst of me trying to figure out what my role is in raising my sons, my mom bought me a book. It's called "Be the Mom" by Tracey Lanter Eyster. It is a Focus on the Family book. It seriously is so good. It has helped me identify, what the author calls "mom traps" so that I can raise my boys without getting caught up in my selfishness. It has made it very clear that it is my job as a mom to raise these boys for greatness and that starts by my attitude. I need to keep myself in check before keeping them in check. They will imitate my attitude, my behavior, my reactions to situations, my relationship with Jesus and how I love others. WoW! that is quite an important job just those few things. The only way that I will be able to do those things well is to put God first, to know his Word by reading it everyday and to know him by praying and talking to him everyday. That is so foundational. If I don't have a relationship with God then I don't have anything. And that is the truth! I'm preaching to myself right now!
I can't do anything right without God. And that's straight from scripture! "Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God." 2 Corinthians 3:5
Micah is 1 1/2 years old now and is learning about 2 new words every week. Its so cute when he says new words, it will literally be at a random time when we are hanging out and playing. I'll say a word to him over and over again and try to have him say it and he just keeps doing what he is doing. Then the next day we are watching Dora, his new favorite show, and he will randomly blurt out the word I was teaching him the day before. I love that little munchkin! He evens says, Josh...too cute! He loves his brother, he is always giving Joshie hugs and resting his head on him even though it squishes the little guy. It will make Joshua tough ;)
Joshua will be 3 months on the 1st of November. He is wearing 6 month clothing....can anyone say "Big Boy!" He is very strong and loves to talk to people. He coos all the time and smiles at anyone who talks to him. He will even talk to his brother when Micah is in his face and hugging him...I think this is a great start to their close relationship!
Times can get crazy at home and my patience can run low but that is why I have to pray in every moment. God is faithful to help me calm down in the moment and expand my capacity to give more grace. I do love my life and I want to live it to the full. I don't just want to go through life, I want to thrive.
If you are a mommy, whether you stay home or not you should totally grab this book! It is super practical and the author is honest about her life.
