Freedom*

Our church does this weekend called Powerwash. It is like a time of refreshing/healing and meeting with God. It's like taking a look at your life and seeing where you need to let God take over. Being on the apprentice team at church we have already gone through it and God had healed me of my insecurity of "not being good enough" since then I stepped in faith and have not dealt with that for the past year. woop woop! We were a part of the prayer team for this weekends Powerwash...little did I know what God had in store for me. The first night there is focus on laying things down at the cross, and re-iterating the depth of what God did by having Jesus die for us. While we were watching a clip of The Passion, God said to me..I didn't have Jesus die on the cross for you to live under the fear of man. uhh.....God I wasn't expecting you to speak to me then. So I thought that is so true, Jesus didn't die for me to live just a mediocre, standstill routine type of life. He died for me to be set free from that kind of life. He came so that I could live life abundantly ya? Lately, I have been praying that God would take away my "fear of man" and that I would just walk in that freedom. But it was still a lingering struggle. But...this weekend, I went up to get prayer and just felt a refreshing come over me. I knew that God had released that fear and insecurity from me!!! yay!!! FREEDOM!!!! I no longer will walk in that insecurity of caring what people think. It no longer plagues me and I can physically feel the difference! Just like that feeling of "not being good enough" was gone, this too is gone!!!
It may sound crazy but I am a living testimony of God's healing power! woop woop!!!!

Also today we went to my nephews tee-ball game! Those kids are so stinkin' cute! It made me think about how in a little more than a couple of years my son will be out playing sports. :) Since the kids are younger,they don't keep score and just let everyone bat and run around the bases. The coaches stand next to the batters and place the ball on the tee for them. I kept watching the coaches as they would help the little players put their arms and legs and bat in the right position so they would get a good hit. But every time the players went to hit the ball, they dropped their arm or moved their body back to the original wrong position that felt comfortable to them and wouldn't hit the ball, or wouldn't hit it very well. It was super cute but then it made me think...
Why won't they just stay in the position that the coaches put them in? The coaches know what is best for them but to the little kids, it just wasn't comfortable to them. Just like how my Daddy, corrects me and puts me in the right position but I move out of that position because it's more comfy the way I like it. Yet, he loves me enough to place me back into the same position that is uncomfortable again and again and again until I finally trust him enough in my uncomfortability (if that's a word) and just swing, just go for it. It feels good when I hit the ball right...It feels good when I am able to accomplish what He wants me to accomplish because I trusted Him. Basically God just nailed it into my head and my heart that he wants me to walk in FREEDOM and that is where he has placed me. No more walking in insecurity.

"it is for FREEDOM that Christ has set us FREE,

STAND firm then

and do not let yourselves be burdened again

by a yoke of slavery."

Galatians 5:1