Not the best News*

We went to the doctor yesterday hoping that I would be able to go back to "normal" life (aka being busy) but the appointment did not go as we expected. I knew that I wouldn't be completely off of bedrest but I knew that there would be progress since last weeks appointment. But as the doctor was doing the ultra-sound he found that the blood sac had gotten bigger. The tone in his voice made me assume that he was surprised by how it got bigger. He said that this could lead to a miscarriage. He said that usually he sees these things get smaller and eventually it becomes a normal pregnancy. But in my case the blood sac got bigger. I was a little stunned because I did not expect things to be worse, I knew they would be better. I am a little confused yet again as to what is going on inside my body. The doctor said more bed rest and just taking it easy, to not do anything that I don't need to do.

What makes this hard to grasp is that there is no information on this. Everything we read about "extra choronic bleeding" does not have a lot to say about it except for that you have to wait and see what happens. And there is no procedure or steps you take to insure that everything will turn out normal. What worries me is how big the sac is. One of the sites said that if the sac is 50% the size of the placenta then that is not good. Well, the blood that is pooled in my body is bigger then the placenta with the baby in it.

I really do not know what to think anymore. I know everything is going to be fine because God is in control. I know he will protect my baby, whether that means living in this world or living with Him. I just have to wait on the Lord. I literally have to trust Him, because I cannot do anything about what is going on inside of me. There is no need to worry, I will only stress myself out if I worry about it. But I am left with a feeling of being unsure. Although I need to rise up and be confident in what God has in store for us.

The left big black spot is all the blood.

The right big black spot is the placenta and the white spot inside of it is the baby.

We will have to trust in the Lord and see what happens.

:)