Last week I had a follow up appointment to check on the size of this bloodsac that has changed my "normal" life. Praise Jesus its SMALLER!!!! The doctor seemed happy to see that the sac was significantly smaller. He measured it and said that it was 30% smaller than the last appointment we had with him. I was so happy and thankful that everything was fine. Things are looking up and we are heading the normal pregnancy lane. The sac should keep getting smaller and smaller til it is no more and then it is a normal pregnancy. It's always amazing to see the little baby on the screen. She looked bigger! (I still think it's a girl, but I will feel pretty bad if it is a boy...we shall see!)
I still have to "take it easy" and not work, or lift heavy things or do anything I don't necessarily have to do. This "taking it easy" thing has been the hardest part for me. I have learned that I identify myself with doing things and getting tasks done. So not doing anything really at all has been very difficult for me. Yes, I do little things here and there. I get to take care of Micah some days but I get a lot help from both grandmas. (which I am very grateful for!) But I find myself feeling useless and purposeless. I know in my mind that is not true but because I identify myself with "doing things", not doing anything feels like I don't know who I am anymore. It is humbling to come back to this fact over and over again. I just can't quite understand who I am in Christ. It is going to take a whole lot of learning over the years! But I know that this time off from work and doing too much is a good time to just sit back and be reminded of why I am here on this earth. I am here to glorify God in all I do, even if that means sitting here.
One thing that I have to keep remembering is that there is a little baby in my belly. And by me sitting here and stopping my "normal" life, I am doing what I should be doing for this little one. I do find peace in knowing that this baby will be healthy and have a full life...and it starts from me doing absolutely nothing. :)
God is totally awesome and powerful!
