Today is my first mothers day...I don't feel old enough to be a mama. But I am so proud to be a mama of a great son. I love him so much already and he doesn't have to do anything to make me love him any more than I already do. Being a mom for only two weeks has made me realize how amazing my parents are, how amazing any parents are for that matter. It is hard work taking care of a little one, and I know the fun is just barely beginning for me. It's crazy that this little baby depends on us for everything, he cannot do anything on his own, we need to be there for him. I love taking care of him and Shelden has been so great taking care of him! I feel bad because Shelden gets up more than I do to take care of Micah in the middle of the night. I figure I would hear him because I have those "mother instincts" but some nights I'm just so tired that I sleep right through it...oopsies! I tell Shelden to wake me up because he is the one who has to work during the day, but he is too nice and just lets me sleep. I definitely need to get up to take care of Micah more often...I am feeling the conviction as I type...yikes!
Sometimes I still am in awe that I am a mom. I can't believe God would allow me to be responsible for a child...haha just kidding but really! I need to step into that role of being a mother and put my whole heart into it. I really have no idea what I am doing or how to be a mom, but that is where I get to lean on God and look to him for answers. It is a whole new season of life and a new part of the road that I did not realize I would be on at this time in my life...but its so good! It definitely has been very difficult at moments but I have had some of the sweetest moments with my baby that have far surpassed the difficult ones. God is working on me and it is proving to be tough but that makes for the best times. I am excited to see how the relationship between me and Micah will develop. :)
Happy Mothers Day to all the mama's!
