Peace Pilgrim*

Frustration brings on growth...I dislike that it works like this. Lately, I have been so frustrated with a certain situation and I know in my heart that I have to just push through it but my flesh doesn't want to. I find myself whining and complaining and justifying in my mind the frustration. And living in frustrating is really only making myself miserable. The feelings of frustration is the opportunity to grow, I can either hit the ceiling and bounce back to where I was at before and never grow or I can push through the ceiling and grow from that frustration. I don't want to ever go back to where I was before, I don't want to be a person that never becomes who God intends me to be because of a selfish moment of frustration. The thing is, I am frustrated because things aren't going my way, because people aren't acting the way I expect them to. How selfish is that? uggghhhhh!
Because my husband is ever so lovingly honest with me, he calls me out in my selfish thinking. Having those conversations really suck but in the end they are refreshing and help me get back on track. Praying through the situation and giving up unrealistic expectations has brought me to a place where I am no longer frustrated. Even though I still am hesitant to do what is the unselfish thing to do, I have decided that I will push through the ceiling. It's funny how God speaks to you at the moment you need to hear it, Pastor Rob prayed over the worship team about how the old ceiling will be the new floor. I automatically starting thinking about this situtation that I am struggling with and knew God was saying you need to push through this ceiling! This frustration ceiling that I am hitting will be the new floor of where I am going. Thank God for growth, even though it really sucks in the moment, it is so worth it in the end. And it's not worth it because there is a reward, sometimes we will never live to see the reward, it is worth it because it gives God glory.

I love the peace and joy God brings when I decided to push through...it's beautiful!